The crazy in us all

Every girl is a bucket full of crazy.

At least, that's what my husband thinks. And I tell him frequently that he lucked out in marrying me because I'm not crazy.

But let's be honest. Every girl has at least a little bit of crazy in her. We're just wired that way. There is no hiding it or escaping it. The crazy can come creeping out when we least expect it. Or even when we know it's coming, and we try to hide it, and it still rear's its ugly face.

My crazy comes out for a few different reasons.

1. Insecurity. Again, this comes with the territory of being a female. But when you get more than two ladies together, insecurities come out. Working in an office dominated by women, this happens. Interacting with bloggers, who are overwhelmingly women, this happens. Are they talking about me? Do they like me? I wish we were friends. Oh they are the popular girls? Why doesn't she talk to me more? Why is she ignoring me?

Crazy, right? No matter how hard we try to squash those questions and insecurities. It just happens.

2.When I'm stressed- holy crazy stress freakout. My poor husband has to deal with this one on a regular basis. In my current job as an event planner for a non profit with a minimal budget, stress comes with the territory. Oh you want me to make $100,000 at this event but I'm not allowed to spend money? Really?

Bonus points if you know what movie this is from!!

3. Nerves. There are potentially a few life changing things currently happening right now. No, I'm not pregnant. But I'm not going to talk about these things until something actually happens. Let's just say they make me nervous as hell. As in sick to my stomach, tears in my eyes, "holy shit, I'm freaking out" nervous. Which really brings out the crazy. The over-analyzing, "did I say the right thing??" complete insanity that takes over my mind and body. Needless to say, I hope these things work out soon and I can stop thinking about them.

4. Babies. NO, still not pregnant. But the thought of babies make me crazy. Crazy in a good way and in a bad way. I'm 27. I act 18. How will I ever be responsible enough to care for a child? But god damn, my nieces are the cutest. And I love the relationship my brother and sister-in-law have with them. And holy crap, I want to be a mom some day. But am I ready for this now? No! Yes! I don't know!

5. Wedding planning brought out a whole new level of crazy. But looking through this list- I think it combines all of these things. Insecure about how other people would view our wedding. Stressed about making it the best. day. ever. Nervous about taking such a huge life step. Not going to lie when I say I'm glad that ones over!

I had to....

It's hard. I try to hide it. I try not to let it take over my life. And I think I do a pretty decent job of it. Trust me, there are plenty of females out there doing shit that is 100 times crazier than anything I would ever even think about doing.


But it happens. So just embrace it and make the best out of it!