I have baby fever...or do I?

I have baby fever.

But only sometimes.

Let me explain. I have the two cutest nieces in the history of the world. Fact. And seeing their interactions with brother and sister-in-law? That kind of pure, true love is unmatched. 

Cutest family ever.

But seriously. When my brother gets home from work, Caroline runs to the door and screams Daddy! every time. When Nora cries, Emily is the only one who can calm her down (and not just as the food source). And I think that someday, that will be me. I'll be the mom who can always make her crying baby happy, who can kiss all boo boos to make them better.

Sometimes, I think that time is now. I think that if I got pregnant tomorrow, I would be totally fine with it. And in all honesty, I probably would. But am I really ready to be a mom right now? I don't think so...

Doug and I are both 27 (well- he will be in 16 days). We enjoy weekly dinners with our friends where at least a bottle of wine and a 6-pack of beer are consumed. On weekends, when we're not out and about at a wedding or visiting friends in another city, we make last minute plans, spending the night at friends' houses without a second thought. Kids? Yeah- that changes all that. 

I love to think we'll be the couple who doesn't turn into complete shut ins and ignoring all our friends. But will we? Who knows. 

And then there is the fact that we're still living in an apartment. I grew up in a house, with a yard (42 acres actually...I know that's not going to happen in Cleveland)...with a dog and multiple rooms. The thought of having a child in our two bedroom apartment? Crazy. Baby=need a house. 

I legitimately change my mind 100 times a day. 

We will make awesome parents. I like wine a lot. I can't wait to be a mom. But what if I want to go out to the bar with friends. Though, I am really good at putting my nieces to bed. There is no way I'm going to be able to survive on that little sleep. Babies are adorable; there is no truer love that the love of a mother for her child. But really...I love my sleep.

So I guess we'll see. I honestly have no clue when we'll have kids, but I know we definitely will. Again, if it happens tomorrow? Will there be complete and utter panic- absolutely yes. Would I be completely and totally thrilled- absolutely yes.